Learning to be smile again. Let's start from 0...

12/1/2011 - Wednesday.

Ok.
Since that thing happen to me.
Seriously.

My face.
My mood.
My smile all are disappear.

Ya.
Last time i learning to be cheer.
To be positive in every thing, any thing.

But,
Is too bad for me.
Once i facing that such problem.

I cant to be positive any more.
And keep on negative way.
Quite suffering myself life.

No more smile.
No more laugh.
Every day tear's tear's and tear's

Now so finally i discover that.
The true thing happen is ........

As a human.
Since we born, we really only know how to be smile and laugh and happy.
We don't learn how to smile or laugh.
This the basic, normal.
Once we born we know.
So this really a free course that we no need pay any cost.

Sadness, cry, tear ...
We learn from our daily life.
We facing a lot of thing problem.
Friendship, Love, Family, Work, Study, Pressure.
And we start to be sad, emo even we cried.

When as a child.
When how cry ko how to cry.
Cry loud loud.
Cin cai shout.

Now big liao.
Can we cry like that ?

NO.

So we learn to cry alone.
We cry by secretly.
And one day.

We don't cry any more.
We stopped to be cry any more.
Why ?

Tear used finish ?
Or you already learning some lesson ? =)

Learn to be smile and don't to cry.

Cry is the most stupid thing for human.
Smile is clever person do it de.
So... Which you are ?

Cry show out that you are weak.
Smile shown out that you are strong.

Ya.
Once we learn from some lesson.
We don't to be cry any more.
We learn to be smile in front of every one.

This is most important lesson there.
Once u learn , you will feel yourself bigger and mature and grow up already. =]
That's a good thing.

Cause in our whole life.
We shell meet some thing that really suck.
We facing a lot of problem and pressure.
We slowly find the way to solve it.
And learning non stop.

So, we should thanks to the person who teaching.
We should thanks to the person who hurt us.
We should thanks to every one in our life.

We see
We saw
We know
We feel
And we learn in as our life lesson.

This our life.
If your life no friend, no family.
Without any one human.

Only you alone in the world.
How you learn ?

Human forever selfish one.

We can see
We might learn.
We shell saw.

The true, the real one face of human.

Time long le, can know liao.

So,
For me, since that thing happen.

My whole person is down till max.
Every day tear's.

And i see some person real face already.
Friend, don't to be too over trust also.

All that i learn to be smile and positive is gone.

So start from today.
I knew that i learned a new lesson again.

So let me start from 0 again.
Learn to be cheer
Learn to be smile and learn to be positive.

The crazy CoCo will be back soon.
Gonna come back liao. =]

When i down every one is scared of me.
Is it that am i so scary ah uh ? o.o"""

Cause i won't show any one my real face.
But once i show, that feeling i know.
Suck. =x

So Sorry about that.

11/1/2010

Congrats to Chung Hwa small group oks member.
Hmm.
Actually .....
You guy feel you guy is really should to get this prize or lucky ?

For me.
You guy just lucky...
Many thing's that you guy did it not really well.
Disappointed much. =)

But since now already get it.
Don't say too le.
Go ahead and continue it.
As a senior no eye see at all.
Dont think to give any extra comment too.
I keep my mouth stup.

Well.
This few day still the same for me.
Dying at home.
And yesterday 10/1/2010

My mum said she help me register for my krusus larh. Car larh. Whatever thing already.
So . . . . . . .
Hehehehe.
Good Luck. T.T

And hor.
Actually 19/3 i can go KL liao de.
Genting for Sammi Cheng concert.

But after that only know that day is my cousin wedding dinner.
So...
Too bad for me.
I cant go for the concert see Sammi.
T___________T
Really sob sob..
Some more is kor kor out money for me de lerh !!!

Yorrrrrrrr !!!
Jin beh syok nia !!!
Really is xxxx !!!!!

Hope got next time chance luu... *.*

Hmm.
Nowadays i dying at home wor.
Who might help me ? Save me ?
No work bcs of no transpot.

But i will try to find some work near my house here.
So i walk go lorh.
Easy and earn money too what.

K larh.
I think no thing to write liao wor.
See larh.
Nowadays so less update blog liao.

Nothing happen.
And all happen sad sad de.
Dont think wanna to update too.

All keep in my diary. =P
I love to write more than type.

Me a un-normal human ?
I wonder~~

La la la~ Bla bla bla~

7/1/2010 - Friday

Bored.
This week is school reopening week.
So i really bored without them.
Holiday still can chit chat with them at facebook.

Now all pergi school.
All working,college.
So i'm dying. xDDD

9/1/2010 oks competition.
This whole week they also stay back for practise.
So like me this type de.
Eat sleep play nothing do at home one.
Back to school for helping and playing.

So bad that junior disappointed me.
Ok fine.
Dont say any more.

School always the nice place for friend gathering.
xDDDD
Hahaha.
No need worry money,transpot,bla bla bla.

Wanna to meet who,who also can let you meet.
How nice are that.

All schooling working.
And me ?
Dying.

Actually i not dont want to work larh k.
Is myself dint hv transpot.
I dint take my car yet.
If find work mar need my mum fetch ?
Just like schooling.
Still need mum fetch meh ?
Wired nia.

So this week i whole week given to oks liao.
Next week i will go register for taking my undang and car lisence.
xDDD
So hope can fast fast pass liao.
Im free liao.
Where also can go liao.

Wooo woooooooooooo.
Then i really can sing this liao~~

"我是一只小小小熊猫~~“
“我是一只小小小螃蟹~~“

Hahahahaha~
Funny lerh. xD

Jin sia sui larh seriously.
Graduated liao ko bo lisence. T.T

No face nia.

Disappointed. =)

6/1/2010

Already went back to school for helping oks junior 3 day's
But then, one day sad than one day.
Totally disappointed so much.

Me as a graduated member, as a senior.
You guy that attitube treat me.
Totally hurt.

I'm really DISAPPOINTED !!!!
Cant you guy attitube change to be a better way ?

I try to help you guy.
Go back school see see help help.
Need like that or not ?

When need me ask me for help.
When dont ask me for SIAM !?

What the tuuuuuuuuu.

Me got the heart to go back oks for help is good already leh !
For other's where can rajin than me ?
Where good than me ?

Did you ever see/meet a senior/graduated member like me before ?!

I try to bring up oks.
I try to make joke with whole oks.
Let you guy try to more communicate with each other.
Relationship between member can be better and better.

But now i know.
All i did is extra.
No one will thank me.
No one will remember me.
Ya, NO ONE !

No eye see.
I SWEAR !
I wont keep going back for helping u guy already !

I go also go bcs of FRIEND !
Not for you guy thats who so suck i never meet before !
Totally cold blood human !

As a senior that i teach u so much.
I bring you up so much.
I teach for non stop.
Here tell you there tell you.
Let you learning for so much skill in every thing.
At the end treat me like ........

FINE.
Hurt me much
DISAPPOINTED MUCH !!

You guy self settle.
Dont not find me the next time when u need !

Ya.
I SMALL GAS !
SO WHAT !

If you as a senior and facing the same problem with me.
I dont know how will you.
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ !!!

ARGH ARGHHH ARGHH AARRRRGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!

原来这是 “忘“

忘

就是

亡 + 心

=

死 + 心

= 死心。

那，你忘了吗。。。？

1/1/2011

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL !!!!

Ok.
This my 1st post in 2011 year.
Nothing special.
Just a normal also need over life.

New year dons't mean that i will kena toto or 4D become a million.
Still a normal need to eat sleep play.
Hahahaha.

Yea.
Wishing all happy happy happy larh.
What wish also useless.
Be a human.
Most important is Happy.

Happy every thing also will be fine.
Smile is important to human.
We no need to learn also know how to smile,how to laugh.
That's a free course for us. xD
Some more,happy go lucky !! xP

Sad is after we born out.
Then we slowly grow up and learn how to sad and cry one.
We dont know sad one.
Is ourself wanna to learn one.
So,be happy larh. xD

Wishing all happy happy happy !~!~!~!
Hahahaha.
Ya ya.
Laugh more.
Haha more.
Look also more beautiful jor.

Also will gt more ppl chase you liao. xD
Hehehehehe~

Remember.
Happy always,smile always.
Any thing also will be fine and tahan it !

Good luck !

Lazy-ness

30/12/2010

Hmmm.
I'm getting lazy to update my blog.
Few day's some thing happen there.
Over ko suak liao bah.

Myself diary also almost 2 week haven write liao.
=(((
No mood,hand lazy..... -.-

So when want write back.
Need slowly think back and write arh write.
Some thing i only write in blog.
Still need to copy in my diary.

Having blog and diary.
Which better ?
Both got benefit larh.
But diary is old style.
Just a traditional for us.

So i rather to choose write diary.
And also can train hand writing. =x
Train mind to get better sentence.
Hmm.
Ya. Just like writing a essay.
Every time also write full page or 2 page.
A lot thing inside.

Take my diary = Know my whole person secret liao.
Siao siao.
Don't play play sia.
I will keep it deep deep deeeeeep.
xD

Wanna welcome 2011 and farewell 2010 liao.
Any one having count down party or not ?
T.T
Again a lonely new year ?

Oh yea.
This not i'm not having a lonely christmas lerh.
But just .... hmmm. Forgot it.
Sweet and happy memory too larh. =)

Count down ? any one ?
Really wanna in facebook inbox count down ? x.x
Kia~ Jio out go drink and drunk mar. xD
I dare to try now le.
Since having the 1st time.

But beer really not a nice drink to drink.
So ......... BITTER !!!
It's so hard to drink.
But when i having my first time.
No idea there.
I want myself to drunk.
So that's why i keep drink and drink.

What also mai think much. =x
Siao eh hor ?
Suak liao.
Dont say d.

Get ready your mood welcome 2011 and farewell 2010.

Any thing mistake,any thing sad also dont bring to 2011.
2011 a new year, new starting with a new life again.
Leave your sadness and tear in 2010.
And bring your happiness and smile go to 2011.
Step in 2011 say "hello~ a new me coming~"

Fren do any mistake to you,forgive it.
Any memory still keep in heart.

Seriously, Count down any one ? =P

Write For Fun

I'm the one who hurt you.
Because you're the one who i love.

Christmas Eve

24/12/20

Christmas Eve is today.
I'm not dreaming.
You're not dreaming too~

Happy Christmas Eve to every one who reading this post. =P
Merry Christmas~

Enjoy your day too~
Where my present ~~????

So today i gonna walk my planning thing.
Go to Paradise hotel relax and enjoy my day with few kid. =P

Wen xin
Ken
Ys
Evonne
Hong
Vicky
Kher xin
AUNTY Lily
xD

Hahahahah~
Ya ya ya~
We gonna count down beside beach.
So i really hope that we can enjoy well lorh.

Blessing and praying every thing are fine.
=)
Thanks god.

So today end here dulu.

Happy Christmas Even.
xD
Enjoy enjoy~

Count down yea.
1
2
3
~

*poop

Good Luck

23/12/2010

2010 PMR result is today.
All Form3 student Good luck.

And all my Form3 FRIEND xD
Good luck and god bless you.
Hahaha.

Stay calm.
That just a result le.
Cant do any thing, cant change any thing.

Just facing it and Add Oil to your new life in Form 4 !!!
Fight for your life SPM.

Gooooood Luck !!!

That's a sejarah for me le. =x

Damn it !

21/12/2010

Damn it.
Mood so down feel days liao !
Since Saturday !!!
Suck suck suck !!!!

1.
About planning for party.
Here areoplane, there rocket me.
What the tuuuuuuu.
Really ki du lan !

I need amount sure how many person going liao ka can book room eh mar !
So now syok liao lorh
I need to pay for RM xxx !
Ma de leh !

After SPM i really no time to plan to walk to do.
But ........
Ok. Fine.

Suak liao.
This i really dont want to think or talking about liao.
FINE !

All my FAULT there. ALL my WRONG there.
K ?
Song good syok ?!

Just a party to enjoy and play !
Hope that i really can enjoy well.

2.
My 2nd kor want me to intake college when Jan !!!
That's suck you know ?
First class 3/1/2011

I have no holiday
I have no my free time to enjoy !!!

Some more it's need to take my trial exam result.
My trial exam result really suck.
I have not concentrate on my trail.
That time i'm facing some problem.
Iiissshhhhh.

Regret was useless.
But what to do ?
I'm worry about myself.

And surely get scold non stop.

Holiday get far from me !!!!!
I don't want to stay home !

3.
My undang and car i hvt take also.
Money problem.
There need my RM 8xx !
Then time lerh ?
If me Jan really in college.
How i can get my time well ?
That's really suck suck suck.

4.
My own planning.
My life have been control by other.
I have no right to walk my life by myself.
Damn it !

All my planning for after SPM was spoil !
No more and no more for myself.
I want to change my life.

I really need a better and good life for myself !

5.
No money no life.
This world are talking money all.
No money what also cant do.
As my last few post say.
Fucker in house !!!
Cibai eh larh !!!!

I need money !
I have no time to work !
I have no transpot to work too !!!!!
I rather go NS for 3 month and get RM 450 !!!!!!!

ROARRRRRRRRRRR

Mood down down down down for 4th day........

Tired

17,18/12/2010

Morning 830am like that i went to sch.
Oks practise.
Go for kacau kacau play play.

Hemmm.
I take 2 bag of SPM book to those junior.
Finish all.
All take ka liao.
=)

Good.
I not need worry where should i take go or who i should give.
Oks always the best place for me to think of that what i can do there.

So when reach school.
I just like a STAR ? XD
Every one so miss me ? o.o
Get shock a bit.

Here say hi to me.
There shock hello to me.
Hahaha.
Ya.
Im really miss oks MEMBER always.
U guy rock !!!

I love them so much.
Without them i lose my happiness.
Just back to oks nia.
See all junior face.
I automatic can smile.
All also sayang. =)

Practise time from 8am to 5pm.
Actually this a good practise time.
Can learn a lot of thing.
Can improve also.

But as i see.
Now my "mother oks" is getting bad, getting worst.
No idea of that.
Some problem out there.
Not i want to complain.
Even our trainer also complain out liao.

He say de every thing match to my point all.
o.o
His thinking same as me.
Hahaha.
Thats really hurt to like me de senior and teacher.

We have to face a lot of problem.
We having a suck teacher.
We dint have a oks room for practise.
We cant get more days for practise.

Nowadays all the kid also.
I mean oks member.
Just a small training for 2 days.
8am to 5pm
8am to 1230pm.
They also can complain many many.

U guy should understanding this.
U guy practise is tired, pain, bored.
But for senior who teaching u guy is getting a more harder job.
Teaching is not a easy job.
Hope u guy can understand this point.

But as a junior surely wont got ppl can understand senior thinking.
Thats too bad for every one.
U junior complain, me senior also complain.
Every one complain together. =x

We already dint have a good teacher there. (I mean ku wen)
We already dint lucky as band having their own practise room.

So we as a member in oks.
Try our best to do our best marr.
Right ???

All u guy big girl girl, big boy boy liao.
Dont be so notty liao mar.
Aneh kuan senior like ME
Will be more sayang u guy one.
Hahahaha.

I really dont want hear de thing Mr.Lai also say out liao.
散沙.....
This word really suit to chung hwa oks member.
Since Form 2.
I already get the feeling
Until today i graduated.
I heard it from Mr.Lai.

Thats really bad and hurt as a senior, as a member. =(
2 months holiday 2 days practise.
Also want complain many many ? -.-
I wonder u guy thinking.
Cant tahan then LEAVE. GET LOST bah.

We senior tried our best to get a better oks team.
Junior also help senior together mar.

Oks is one family.
U also sit inside there one !
Want win together win.
Want lose together lose.
Want cry together cry.
We laugh together laugh.

This our home too.
All brother sister here.
No enemy !
Sai sui also tgt sai sui.
Enjoy the song.
Enjoy the moment.

Nothing is perfect.
Perfect is getting from ur training.
Ur skill is from training,

U solo song so what ?
Thats not nice.
One team oks.
50.. 60 member sitting there.
All TOGETHER play out the song.
Is the most good song.

As a graduated member really can cry liao. -.-
The feeling u guy really dont know.
Haizzzzzzzzzzz.
You guy continue like that.
Next time dont be regret can le.

The end for talking this sad topic.
Want more ? Go my private blog if u get it.
Continue my story in this 2 days.

17 when recess.
Asked mei yen fetch go MCD makan.
Hahaha.
That time want to join in Hui Min.
Mana tau some one old man catching her and talk.
So we dint wait le.
Str8 run go MCD.

That time only 1145am.
So we have to wait till 12pm for buy one ice cream and one FF.
Lame ?
Hahaha
Not really larh.

Next time if the uncle give u guy out eating again.
And i drive car le.
I can bring 4 of u go MCD.
But is who ??
See who fast mar who 1st lorh.
xD

9/1/2011
Gurney oks competition.
Our oks team is not bad larh.
But just dont know the song meaning so cant play the song well.
Evey song gt their own story out there.

We must understand the song talking what thing happen.
We must read the song, feel the song.
So that we only can play the song well.
=)

So since im helping u guy for 2 days time.
Hope u guy can getting better than that.
Our oks senior all really not bad one.

Chung Hwa OKS GT HOPE ONE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
有希望 ！！！

But for me.
Im still the same.
This year 2010 Form1 is oks new hope also.
Hope they "shang shen"

Oks MEMBER. x333333

================================================================

17/12/2010

After oks practise.
Rush back to home chg shirt and rush to Ong house BBQ.
This time BBQ im free bcs im not helping any thing.
Im tired to get ready all these thing.
SInce last year i solo in the BBQ.
So this time u guy do.
Is fair larh k ?
=)

This is a 2009 4s5 class gathering.
Hope it wont be the last.

Any way.
That time although is finish raining.
But they up fire from 5pm to 6pm some thing i think.
Or more than that.

So the party gt 14 person.
Is quite enjoy there.
Although im really tired liao.

Just went all finish makan.
Still leave de thing i go cook.
When they cooking im just walk lai walk ki.
Cause too much person there.
Playing and capture.

Thats funny.
=)

So still the same.
I miss my live with 3 of us.
Me Bei Xuan.

Last time we 3 always together.
And now today.
I hope it will also.

*(I join de place all sure 3 person)
(Me xuan bei)
(Me siang janice)
(Me ken ys)
(And others many ko)

So actually to say also GUA.
Just go facebook see pic pic lorh.
All the pic quite hiao. -.-
Thats nite eat wrong medic.

Lazy liao.
End here.
For those really read all one by one de.
Really thanks much.
For those lazy read de.
Really sorry much.

*poop*

15/12/2010- 10am - Fxxker in house

TOTALLY BAD MOOD NOW !!!
OUT OF MOOD NOW !!!

WHAT THE FXXK YOU WANT ???!!
I dint do u any thing but u keep wanna cari pasal with me ?

Few year go.
Said this computer is give ME !!!!!!
MINE already what !!

And u said u gt ur laptop to use !
Ok.
That fair what !

After that ur laptop spoil
U take it go to repair.

Ok. Nvm.
I share MY comp with u.
U using comp time are longer than me !!
Whole day i only use for the 3 or 4 hrs
AND U the fucker using for whole day time.

OK.
I also fine.
Cause i gt school.
I less use is nvm.
I let u !!

Day over day.
Month over month.
Where ur laptop go ?

AND U SET PASSWORD NOT TO LET ME USE ???!!?!?!

WHAT THE HELL U WANT ?!

1) cari pasal
2) fight ?
3) wanna argue is it !!!!

Since u graduated out from Universiti.
Sitting in house for gonna 3 years time.
That time me onli form 3
And me me already finish my SPM !!!

U this pig lerh ?
Never work.
Gt earn any money for home or not ?
Inside house de thing all is urs ?

Every day game game game game.
Eat sleep play !
Please larh.
Go infrant of a mirror see urself body size !!!

Kanneh lan aneh liao.
And ur fucking brain thinking.
One word !

Suck !

Nowadays mum keep let me go to cc play also is dont want me find argue with u nia.
Day over day.
Im gonna run out away from house no to facing u this cibai lan jiao lang any more.

I hate u till MAX.
I 1 year gonna be 2 years dont want talk to u any more.
Why must u come 惹 me de lerh ?
I study till half way.
U also can cin cai do one thing let me be syok ?
What the fuck u want ?

Keep say me say fake thing
Say lie ?!

Kanneh.
Now is who saying lie the must.
Whole family mum and 2nd bro also know thats was u !
Maleh kanneh.

I wish i hope one day i chop ur bird away.
Let u be a girl is better.
Girl sit house ka nvm.
U this one.
Gt ku ku bird de lerh !!

Useless than me this girl ?
Suck larh.
Chop ur bird throw in to sea. Fish also dont eat.
Opps. Im so sorry to the fish arh.
Polluted their home.
Polluted sea only.

Burn waste oil to burn and make air pollution.
埋藏 le also pollution the place.

Any way.
U dint hv a thing is good one.
FxxKER !!!!

15/12/2010- Wednesday.

YEAH !
Farewell SPM.
Hahahaha.

Is over !! is over !!
Every thing overr ~!!

Say hi to holiday and freedom.
Hi hi~~~
Hahaha
I know it will welcome me always.
xD

Dont get jealous yea. xD
Hehehehehehe

Erm.
What to say now ??
Hehehe
Like nothing aneh.

Car lisence thing ?
Erm.
Ya.
I'm still finding a cheaper and cheaper center.
Nowadays learn car also so expensive.
RM8xx or not also need RM7xx
Kao !!
So expensive arh.

Mana can tahan.
But for my future !
For my freedom !
For me to fly away from this house !
I must learn it and get it.

So i think d.
At least also need wait till 2011 Jan i only can get my P.

But i dont mind.

Got is better than NO !
Thinking positive mar. Right ?
Since i can wait for 17 years.
Why i cant wait for the 1 more month ?
Hahahaha

Then.
I dint kena NS.
Am i lucky ?
Ya. I agree with that.
Because my both bro also dint kena NS one wor.
I tot i will kena.
But No.
So sure i song and syok larh. xD

All my friend kena one 1st kumpulan.
3.1.2011 ko need go in le.

There will be a nice memory for u guy.

New life there ! x33 =)

Next is.
Erm ermm.
Holiday party plan ?
Lolz.
This thing i think tiok pun sakit kepala liao.
Bo lat.
All of money problem.
Some more transpot problem.

Really tired to think about transpot problem.
All fast fast grow up liao go exam car.
So that no more problem.
-.-

SKIP !!!!!

Erm....
Look like nothing to write le temporary.
So today end here.
Bye

*Poop*

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